The truth is you cannot help but think of the animals. Nature designed us to be moral, connected, and caring people as a survival mechanism. However, it is very easy with human beings to short circuit morality, because when told by larger majority that “it’s okay! we’re superior to the others (animals & even some other humans — like vegans)” Humans are very easy to persuade anything is permissible. but there’s good news:
Any horror is only alleviated by those who push for greater morality. We end legal slavery that way. We give women votes. We stop burning witches (mostly — except in Africa) Therefore, thank you for striving to be moral and take comfort in knowing that you are on the right side of Earth, history and of course, every suffering being. Be blessed by your courage.